I've recently been finding myself to be impeccably bored and lonely this past week. Yes, I have my lovely boyfriend by my side for all this, since he is also going to the same college as me. We get to be bored and lonesome together for another month.
Even though I have him, things seem to be way harder than they were even a week ago. Seeing all of my old friends go to college and I didn't get to say goodbye, things at home are a little harder yet better than it has been, my jaw hurts, I broke a nail, this stupid bump on my nose wont go away, I got one of my first zits, the list goes on forever!!!
I never used to be this paranoid about all the little things happening in my life. Its a very recent thing. I'm not really sure why I've suddenly been giving into all the physical problems I've been having. Is it because I'm scared? I think so. But why?! What could I possibly be scared of? I know deep down that everything
So why am I worrying? The more I worry, the worse I feel physically. It doesn't do me any good. I need to let the universe carry this one out for me. I need to stop relying only on myself. I can't be the one to fix everything. Some things just heal on their own.
It's strange, because I know all of this. I know what I'm doing wrong, and yet, I can't seem to follow my own advice. I can't seem to shake the feeling that everything is falling to pieces, even though everything is in its right place.
Everything is in its right place.
Everything is fine.
I need to keep telling myself that.
I hope this month flies by fast. I need a new beginning.
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